Saturday, November 1, 2008

Rough Weekend

I will post pictures from Halloween soon!  We had a great time, and have enough candy to feed all the kids in the neighborhood.  
Today, however, is not a good day.  I had some cramping last night, but blamed it on indigestion and the pot luck lunch we had at work.  Every since I found I was pregnant, I have told Benji and my BFF that something felt "weird", but I did not think it was anything to worry about yet.  I had an appointment with my doctor scheduled for this week and was planning on talking to him about it.  Well, this morning I woke up to bleeding.  Had I not known that I was pregnant, I would have thought my period was starting.  It was light at first so I called my BFF, who is also a nurse, and casually mentioned to her that I would not be able to go to a baby shower today and told her how I was feeling.  After speaking with her, I decided to call the on call doctor and see what I should do.  They told me to go to Labor and Delivery and be checked.  I was admitted to the hospital where things seemed to get worse.  By this time, I was bleeding very bad and cramping worse than ever.  I layed there waiting for the doctor and knew what was happening.  After a test, she confirmed that I was miscarrying.  My options were come home and pass the tissue for several days or since I was already dilated to have a D&C while I was there, in order to rid my body of the tissues.  There was no way I was going to come home and watch the tissues pass, so I decided to go ahead with the procedure.  Dr. K (who I have only see one time) was so supportive and she held my hand and rubbed my back while I cried!  Thank goodness she was on call.  So the D&C was performed and now I am back home.  I just want to hug Ben and be thankful for him, but he will be spending the evening away, just in case!
Thank you all for your thoughts and well wishes before!  I normally do not share personal information like this with the world, but it does feel better to put it in words.  We will be ok, I am sometimes stronger than I ever think, and we will get through this.  

1 comment:

Michelle said...

I am so sorry to hear about this. I know exactly what you went through and are going through. Did they tell you why you miscarried? They never could me so don't be suprised if they can't you. It is an awful thing but we have to just have faith in God. I have come to realize that for some reason that child of mine was not to come into the world, as the same for yours. I know that doesn't make it any easier nor does the fact that they tell you, you get pregnant faster after a D&C. Nothing can make you feel better. I am really sorry this happened to you. I guess it made me realize how lucky I was to have Emily. I already loved her more then the world but after my miscarriage I realized even more how special she was and how she really was a gift from God. If you need anything or have any questions please call or email me. I love you and am praying for you, and trust gets better