Today, however, is not a good day. I had some cramping last night, but blamed it on indigestion and the pot luck lunch we had at work. Every since I found I was pregnant, I have told Benji and my BFF that something felt "weird", but I did not think it was anything to worry about yet. I had an appointment with my doctor scheduled for this week and was planning on talking to him about it. Well, this morning I woke up to bleeding. Had I not known that I was pregnant, I would have thought my period was starting. It was light at first so I called my BFF, who is also a nurse, and casually mentioned to her that I would not be able to go to a baby shower today and told her how I was feeling. After speaking with her, I decided to call the on call doctor and see what I should do. They told me to go to Labor and Delivery and be checked. I was admitted to the hospital where things seemed to get worse. By this time, I was bleeding very bad and cramping worse than ever. I layed there waiting for the doctor and knew what was happening. After a test, she confirmed that I was miscarrying. My options were come home and pass the tissue for several days or since I was already dilated to have a D&C while I was there, in order to rid my body of the tissues. There was no way I was going to come home and watch the tissues pass, so I decided to go ahead with the procedure. Dr. K (who I have only see one time) was so supportive and she held my hand and rubbed my back while I cried! Thank goodness she was on call. So the D&C was performed and now I am back home. I just want to hug Ben and be thankful for him, but he will be spending the evening away, just in case!
Thank you all for your thoughts and well wishes before! I normally do not share personal information like this with the world, but it does feel better to put it in words. We will be ok, I am sometimes stronger than I ever think, and we will get through this.